As I went out into the yard, just feet away from where the terrible incident that cost Sundance his life (on this earth) took place, I noticed one, just one, flower standing alone, and it was the prettiest salmon color I have ever seen. I knew four things right away:

It was a tulip
It stood alone
It was beautiful
I didn't plant it

It was striking, the bud closed, but against the backdrop of the trees and lots of green, it almost glowed. I'll never forget feeling it was there for me, for us, and how it comforted me. On Easter morning I went out, and there it stood, fully open, so perfect.

Each morning since, whenever I leave the house and approaching my car, I have glanced over, and there it has been, a comforting and affirming reminder to me of God and Sundance looking down on us, and that everything would be ok 

But today, as I went out, i felt very sad when I looked over and saw it was gone. It really was a painful few minutes, searching, then accepting it was not there anymore.

Still struggling to build faith, and needing to learn God doesn't give and take back, my first thought was one I need to learn is not true, that I must have done something wrong and God had taken away this symbol of presence. It really will take time to understand fully grace has saved me, it's not about anything I do or don't do

I know God loves us, and that flower was here for us, we did notice, were thankful for and comforted by it  
Now, I must hang on to the faith I have, to self acceptance, God's love and forgiveness, and the "knowing" God has given me that Sundance is ok and with him.

Today, the flower is gone, but they are not, I will continue with hope and faith in whats unseen.

Thank You God, for helping me see that sign of your presence, and it's color, and realize it was also the wagging tail of Sundance. He is with us still, through you.